I believe!

 I believe in having faith. 

     I had the best bike ride on Wednesday. That was the 4th of July. No traffic on the course and the sun was trying to shine through the morning fog. Last week was a pretty bad week for me. Seemed like the fog would never clear. 

     I was in denial that I was getting sick. I needed a long run on Thursday and after work ended up sleeping in my car at the trail head for two hours prior to that run! Then for four more days kept getting a weird headache and my legs ached. I needed a napped everyday but still felt blah. I had no motivation. I kept thinking to myself that this was it. My training wasn't fun anymore. How was I going to do a full Ironman someday feeling like this? That next Sunday I was to do a 70 mile bike ride with an experienced friend but I had tire problems. (Later showed my husband my tube stem that I thought I messed up while pumping in air and it was fine!) I handled the problem pretty well but my bike was not ride-able. I drove my car to find my buddy, who was going to meet me on her bike and tell her that I couldn't go. When I found her, she had just fell two minutes before! I felt so bad for her. This chain of events was getting weird and tell something. She was able to go on with out me and finished the ride. I went back to bed. 

     Getting sick right at taper time was not in the plans but things worked itself out. I am feeling better than ever now. With nine days to go till my A race I was feeling energized. I need to keep in mind to dial things down and just let my body rest and recover for what I'm going to put it through on the 15th. This week actually I had off from work, except for a temp job on Monday. No stress at that office. I can just do what I do and leave. 

     That brings me to my current job. That week that I was getting sick, my head was not in a good place either. I was having anxiety over work and whether I was going to be let go. Finding some place else to work.  Anxiety over money and my house and mortgage. I got online that morning and someone had posted about faith. It was then that I realized that I can only do what I can do. I was always relying on hope. Hope this. Hope that. Hope it works out. But, I needed faith. I needed to believe. God will take care of me. At that moment I was lighter and I have been happier since then. What a relief! I all is more clearer.  

    

This is so true!!

This is my life! Don't mess with me! I don't have to take it and am buying my time. Just wait!

One last thing. Lake Stevens 70.3 Ironman coming up fast! I have decided to just do my race. I am stronger and better than last year. I can swim!!! The new bike course is hillier and I don't think I will get the time I really want but I will try my best. I just have to remember to not go all out too much on the bike or else my run will suffer. My time last year was 6:25. Just want to do better, even if by just a little.
Couple things going for me. My own wetsuit that fits and is very comfy. Clip-less shoes for my bike for more power up those hills. I had a great winter training with CrossFit for more strength. Thank you Jay and Crossfit All In! And I have a fantastic coach that sets my training in the right direction and with great encouragement. Thanks Mary! Oh, and my bike shifts much better now that Snohomish Bicycle did some adjustments.

Thanks for reading my ramblings.  More later. :)